The other day I was with my sisters-in-law and we were discussing our struggles with weight. I feel like this is an issue that most women deal with at some point in their lives, and we were talking about how we have yo-yo dieted, what has worked, when we’ve failed what went wrong and how to fix it. I went first and I shared with them my weight journey and struggles through my life, and could pinpoint some of the reasons I had failed but then that was it. As I sat there listening to them talk, they did the same, and for some reason my mind instantly went to how can I help them overcome this challenge and be successful. I got so excited and passionate about creating this neat things to help them out, encourage them and planned out buying everything I needed to accomplish this and then surprising them with this gift. Then it occurred to me……I’m a fixer. I can hear other people’s problems and come up with some pretty clever ways to help them out and try to fix what is going on in their life. This is a good quality, I feel, but the flaw is in the fact that I can’t seem to do this for myself. I feel like I should know myself better than anyone else, and that I should be able to take charge of my life and fix what needs mended but that’s not the case. Instead, I find myself talking about my problems, and then sweeping them under the rug and moving on with life as if nothing ever happened. When I do that, I continue on the same lethal path I was on before and nothing will ever change until I choose to take charge and make my situation better. I have seen this in other areas of my life too, and I feel like maybe it’s because if I am focusing on the problems that other people have and trying to help them overcome that, then it also allows me to, behind the scenes, ignore my problems so I don’t have to deal with them. So, I have resolved to try to overcome this challenge. The idea is that every time I am talking about a struggle that I have or problem I am dealing with, I am going to write it down. Maybe if I see it in front of me in print, then it will be more real. Then at that point I can look at that issue and come up with a solution on how I need to handle that.
So, first things first, the weight. It is a challenge that I’ve dealt with so, starting tomorrow, I am going to keep a diet and fitness log on a DAILY basis….no matter WHAT! No matter how embarrassing what I ate was if I don’t admit to it, I can’t fix it, right?! So hopefully this will help me work on problem number one 🙂 Here’s to new beginnings and trying to truly find and better myself….
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